So, this is the Hardy family one and a half weeks later...It was originally intended to be a one week later post, but, better late than never!
The Good (GREAT!):
*Cameron makes the most fabulous faces in the world. I could sit for hours and watch him wrinkle his forehead, squish his lips together, open his eyes, and close his eyes. It is totally mesmerizing to watch and I am just amazed at how perfect he is.
*Watching Cameron and Zack nap together has filled me with a more intense love than I could ever imagine feeling. No matter how tired or frustrated I am, seeing my baby boy sleep on my husband's chest gives me the peace and calm I need to trust that everything is right with the world.
*I have absolutely fallen in love with my husband all over again in a way I never thought possible. Zack is truly an amazing father. He is patient, loving, kind, and so involved in everything Cameron does. He has taken charge of diaper changing, burping, rocking, and soothing and I know he would feed him if he could. I am so proud that Cameron has such a wonderful role model to grow up with. But, not only is Zack an amazing father, he is an amazing husband. There have been quite a few rough times this past week, and Zack has stood by me in ways I never thought possible. Making the adjustment to being a mommy is difficult at times, and it is complicated by the hormones in my body trying to right themselves after nine months of going haywire. Zack has held me when I've cried, reassured me when I'm doubtful, and given me strength when I'm too tired to find any on my own.
The Bad(not necessarily bad, just not so great):
*I have forgotten what sleep is. Well, not sleep necessarily, but long periods of sleep when it is dark out- and I thought getting up to pee twice a night was rough...boy was I wrong. I haven't had to fight so hard to keep my eyes open since high school calculus. Cameron sleeps pretty good every other night which means that I don't sleep well on the off nights. On the nights he does sleep well (i.e. four hours between waking up hungry), I find myself sleeping lightly, or even waking up just to make sure my little man is still breathing and sleeping safe and sound.
*I know babies are expensive when you consider diapers, wipes, clothes, etc. but there are other expenses that while are totally worth it, were also totally unexpected. To keep Cameron safe at night, the American Assoc. of Pediatricians recommends a temperature of no warmer than 72 degrees. 72 degrees can feel pretty chilly, and our a/c runs quite frequently to keep it so cool. So, our power bill is on the rise, not to be outdone, however, by our water bill. Since Cameron came home, we have done no less than at least one load of baby laundry each day. Blankets, outfits, sheets, changing pad covers, etc. covered in pee, poop, blood, and spitup seem to be overflowing his hamper before lunchtime.
The Ugly (but oh so funny!)
*Cameron has amazing projectile powers. Since he's been here, we've witnessed projectile spit up, pee, and poop all a bit more closely than we would have wished. In the hospital, Cameron managed to spit up on Zack from his head to his toes! A few days ago, he managed to pee during a diaper change and impressively got urine all over the wall above his head. As I was cleaning him up from that, the projectile poo began. I tried to catch it in my hand (oh the things mothers do for their babies) but it managed to make it all over the wall and bookshelf behind him. Every day there is something new to laugh at and enjoy!